Little Thrills
School work has become not a little thrill. In fact, to suggest the word “thrill” should go anywhere near this PhD process seems sacreligious. But nonetheless, the time has come that I just start hunkering down and do this thing.
Thus, I have. But not without reward. Tonight as I sat down, notes in front of me, trying to drum up a train of thought about how idiocultures are developed within existing social structures and the effects of said structures (I KNOW…this is my life, people. Not pretty), I promised myself that after a couple hours (literally 2), I would allow myself the luxury of a treat: fix my blog. Because, really, the fact that the pictures were not mine was seriously bothersome, especially because I kept getting a lot of compliments on them and, well, that was making me jealous.
There begins my sojourn into the fun world of CSS. Two hours later, I emerge triumphant and I feel like a million bucks. Veni, Vidi, Vici. (That’s Latin for “Take THAT you sucka pictures.” Just to recap in case you haven’t been following: I managed to get two pictures up in two hours. And I couldn’t be happier. In fact, I’ll sleep better tonight knowing that the Sunset at the Arno adorns my homepage.
In the midst of this compulsive panic, though, I did pause to reflect. This may sound ridiculous but: I think we don’t celebrate enough. Like, really expend energy to pat ourselves (or others) on the back for jobs well done. We get judgey (PhD word, guys, keep up) about what constitutes a “success” and we’ve driven that standard so high that we really spend a huge amount of time chasing things but rarely taking stock in what makes us happy and what we’ve accomplished in getting there.
Am I a big fat nerd because I’m totally thrilled that I “won” the battle? Yes. Unequivocally, yes. But I’m willing to accept that for this feeling of a little weight off my shoulders and a sense that I mulled through something a figured it out. And yay for me.
Enjoy the sunset. I know I will.
P.S.–In case you were wondering…those OUT OF CONTROL enormo TAGS are next on the list. That’s just ridiculous…
UPDATE: Tags fixed…for now.