Just When You Weren’t Looking…
I’ve been going on autopilot the last couple days. My energy is low, low, low. I’ve been stressed out to the point that it should be called, “stressed in” (in that much like backdraft, the lack of oxygen in a burning room will first suck everything into it and then blow it to smithereens). It’s a phase…I think the natural valley after a month of high-energy “I’m moving and it’s summer and I got Active for the Wii.” But it’s these times when I think some of the greatest things can happen because, for whatever reason, I’ve just had to let go of my strangle-hold on everything…and have found wonders on the other side of over-management.
For instance:
1. I sang in a concert last Sunday that turned out to be one of the greatest moments of my life.
2. I realized I like the world a lot better without my IPod.
3. The Madonna della Strada Chapel in the evenings is a beautiful place to be.
4. I’m much more capable and interested in my culture special field than I previously thought.
5. A friend of mine from years gone by appeared out of nowhere and apparently is now living in Evanston.
6. House guests can make life a little more worthwhile if even for a short time.
7. Transitions don’t have to be horribly painful.
8. Everything in it’s time.
I reflect on this all the time. For some reason, the lesson of letting go takes time to sink in. I’ve never trusted it. And I think that’s precisely the problem. I’m learning…slowly.