Dec 12 2011

Ephiphanies

For whatever reason, I’ve been blessed with great realizations that have dropped out of nowhere (which in other circumstances could be known as “now here”) and…today was a really lucky day.

I can’t explain the way these epiphanies happen. Sometimes they seem random but my real guess is that it’s usually when I stop trying to control everything and just let things–against my will–that things happen. Good things. Life-giving things.

I’ve been busy lately and as I’ve felt the stranglehold on my usual routine loosen, magic happens. A great, great concert on Saturday. Lots of good things Sunday. And a Monday full of things that can only be attributed to pure luck or the universe stepping in and simply giving me a break because I’ve been working so hard…spinning my wheels, really, at things that should be pretty easy.

Tom today said that I should enjoy all the great things I bring to the world around me…and I laughed…because all those great things feel like pure gifts…I don’t necessarily work that hard to get them…but the joy is nothing but pure and real. I laugh it off or think nothing of it but…I had an epiphany about it…

…things are good. And I’ve worked hard to have it that way.